It seems like I have only written about bad stuff happening in this pathetic life of mine. Yeah thats true because it's the way I have been feeling ever since I arrived in this town. Everything is too bright, perfect, and... rich? People are too happy. Almost, no a majority of them are just fake. They all seem to want to live among the stars (as in famous people), and show off all the shit that they possess. Sorry to the people that live in this town but its the way I feel. My diary, not yours. It seems like anyone would want to live in this "wonderful" location. I want to be home. This isn't home. Life has basically sucked since I got here and I am not comforted by that. My story with Lyndsay and her friends is one of my examples...
I was sitting at the table this morning just eating a bowl or cereal and being basically content with myself at the early time in the day. (I dont know where she got this from) Lyndsay comes in and tells me I look pathetic, just sitting there, alone, and I had to come along with her tonight and hang with her friends. I was like "What the hell? I'm just eating breakfast!?!" She said something like I was hanging out at the house too much and really needed to get out. True, very true. If I spend any more time with Dorin and Lily (the dogs) I am going to go crazy. So I went with her to her friend Ben's house, he has the perfect definition of an LA house; big, beautiful, filled with lots of crap that have high values. I already didn't like him. There were a lot of other people there and since I was "Lyndsay's cousin" I wasn't getting ignored by them. I end up on the piano with this guy named Adam and he was basically playing shit for me since I have barely ever touched a piano in my life. God he was being so sweet to me but, of course, something is going to mess it up. This Ben is a really crazy guy and I just think he is an idiot. He IS an idiot. He brings out some of his parents beer and everyone just starts passing some around until they get drunk. I say I have to go to the bathroom and I hid in there for a while until I can't anymore and want to leave. I promised myself I wouldn't drink and that's something I am going to actually keep. As soon as I see these people, I can tell they are all drunk. Those horrible memories of my dad come back and I almost break down. Adam was making out with some slutty girl that I don't know and I just wanted to go back to Kora's house. I couldn't find Lyndsay right away so I was getting really pissed and upset about that, I eventually did in the garage. A couple of the guys in there were smoking but she didn't. Fuck drugs and alcohol! Where do they get you in life? I ended up forcing her to walk home with me because I sure as hell wasn't getting into a car with any of those guys. Yea right. It was a long walk home but not the hardest. Somewhere during it, Lyndsay started to sober up and made me promise not to tell Kora about this. I was so mad at her for tonight but I agreed. I now own her. She's in bed now sleeping. Kora and Brad went out for dinner so they dont suspect anything. I am so pissed and have no idea where Heather and Michael are.
*I wish I wasn't me*
wont come true...