Before I grew up, when my parents were still together, they used to always talk about living in this rich town in Pennsylvania. That's so weird because I would never have become me if we were ALL living there now. I mean I would be me but just a different me. I think I actually understand that. And the friends and experiences I have encountered have made me the person I am today.
You know how in movies there is always that loudass girl with all the attitude who people are either very afraid of or really tight with? (well some movies) By me, I think that they would end up bossing me around but I end up being really close with those kind of girls, some of my best friends. I don't know why I was just thinking about that. You know what?! There is no one at this school like that. All the people seem to sort of blend together and none of the groups of people interact with anyone outside of their group. Being me, I'm gunna change that for some people.
Well I just heard (actually read) another story of someone (suprise suprise I actually know them) yet another person who smokes even though "they know it is wrong" Yea from my chicago friends, smoking and getting high was a very common thing. Something to do for a little more fun, drinking too. Yea I'll admit I drink Sky Blue every once and a while but that's just something to get a sweet taste in my mouth with a little fun. Beer and all that other shit is nasty. I think people respected me from chicago *because* I didn't drink or do drugs and never really cared to. I didn't really do much shit with guys so I will never be a slut. I'm the girl next door with an attitude most people don't see unless I show you.
So this place is starting to turn out better than I had expected. Maybe not all the people are the best but there's still a lot of good ones! I have made some fun friends from summer school already and. But for some reason, I have never really felt like I belonged with my friends. This is something I feel wherever I go.
Just being me has never seemed to work even though I have never tried to change a thing. I do what I am comfortable with and that's how I choose how I dress, act, and hang out with people.
I have become pretty good friends with some people here already so I dont have much more to say right now. (bad ending huh)