I'm really confused now. I don't know where I fit in anymore and everyone I seemed to belong with has replaced me. I'm not the girl who forces herself to be put into certain situations and be with certain people if they haven't made it clear that they want me around. I'm not confident like that. School in Chicago started so all my friends from back there are in highschool-meeing new people and making new friends. None of them need me anymore. It's scary how soon things can change. Kendall called me the other night and it has been forever since I talked to her and even though she is one of my favorite people, I didn't want to talk to her. I told her I would call her back but still haven't done that. I hope she doesn't/hasn't gotten pissed off at me. But people change and I have noticed that in a lot of different ones. It's kinda sad.
For here, I am warming up to a lot of people now. I'm friends with them but I haven't changed me. A lot of the new people I have met are hilarious or I can just seem to relate to them in some way. Lui is so sweet, he asked me to homecoming again but I told him I didn't want to go anyway because I dodn't have a dress or anything and don't wanna be bugging Kora about it now. Her and Brad are having some problems so she isn't the happiest person right now. Me and Kristah are in a lot of classes together and I love that girl to death. She's the one that never takes a smile off her face even though her life is a really hard one. People look at her and assume she is some rich snobby girl who gets everything she wants but she works really hard in her life. I shouldn't say because I know people who know her might be reading this and I won't do that. I'm doing ok in school but the only subject that I am doing really, really well in without even trying too hard, just giving my effort and not wasting time is art. God I love that class. I don't know a lot of people and there are a lot of juniors in it so I get work done and just get some quiet time. It's nice.
And to Jaimie~~The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it..